Josalein

I have two awesome new story ideas. Well, actually, they aren't really even all that new. But they've been rolling around in my head for quite some time now and I still haven't put pen to paper...or fingers to keys I should say. Why? Because reasons! Or because I'm just being dumb and lazy about it... I feel like for either of these stories (possibly novels) to turn out well I would need to do a fuck ton of research. Honestly, I would need to dedicate hours upon hours—months upon months in actuality—to fully research everything I would need to know to do a good job. And that is just time and motivation I do not have right now. I feel stupid

Spent some time with a friend today and it gave me a new perspective. It was nothing short of what seemed like a regular meeting. But still, it happened to bring about a sense of confidence and self worth that had been previously ripped away from me. I never thought I'd really ever find my spine again. After all that happened before I was pretty positive that I'd be content in my newfound solitude. But now...? Maybe not so much. I feel like I may have hope now because for the first time since almost a year ago I know I can move on. He wasn't perfect and I'm no longer stuck on the thoughts of us. Life is a funny thing. It brings people and eve

I feel like no one cares. Like I'm just a nuisance. Like the only reason people keep me around Is because they want something from me: My son My time My ear My shoulder My money My company But only when they need me When I'm the only option When they've got nothing and no one better. Fuck you. The whole damned lot of you.